Don’t Carry a Burden Too Heavy
- megbbryce
- Dec 12, 2020
- 2 min read
There are so many things that I want the answers to. And all these things I will never know, not until I get to heaven. I believe I will know everything I ever needed when I’m there.
I think about everything to do with Caleb’s accident. I wonder if he was in pain, I wonder if he was scared, I wonder how quick it was. I wonder if God was with him in that moment, and I wonder if Caleb knew he was going home. As a firm believer, I have a pretty well thought out idea for how everything happened. But it does bother me that I won’t get to know for sure.
All I want to say is that I know how difficult it is to wonder about things you may never know. I know how much of a toll it can take on mental health, and even your physical health. I know how frustrating it can be, and that it can drive you up the wall. I know the desire to do everything in your power to figure these things out. The thing is, if we allow ourselves to sit in our thoughts for too long, we will drive ourselves mad. The beauty of having a relationship with God is being able to let go of those questions, and know that everything is in His control. The beauty is allowing God to have that complete control, and trusting that His plan is bigger than ours. At the end of the day, how much easier is it to lift our weight to God and have him take it off our shoulders?! We don’t have to carry something that’s too heavy for us. It’s amazing that we get someone so big and so powerful on our side. He is fighting for us, He is fighting with us. He cares for us so much that I don’t believe He causes these things to happen to us, but I believe He does allow it. He knows what we need, and as much as I needed Caleb, the experience of losing him has forced me to grow so much as an individual. I can’t believe I’m saying any of the things I am today, but it’s the power and strength of God inside me.
If there are any of you reading this blog post and are having trouble with trusting God, surrendering the desire to know, or lifting your burdens to Him, please don’t hesitate to reach out or submit a message on my page 🤍
Megan, dad and I are so grateful to learn of how God is working in your life during this extremely painful time. Hold onto verses like
Psalm 143:8 “Let the morning bring me word of Your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I entrust my life.”
As parents, grandparents, spouses it is our God given nature to want to hold and protect those we love. But God gave me something that has helped me a lot. He said he formed us in the womb and that He knew us. Caleb is with the one who planned him and formed him and knew him. There is no suffering in Heaven. And praise the Lord we will be reunited. This separation is temporary. I believe God has an amazing ministry for you Megan and for mama Kim. Don't waste your sorrows. That is the title of a book I have. I truly hope you listen to my Christmas story.
So many things about the accident that I struggle with as well and giving those things up to God has been a daily struggle. It truly is a test of faith beyond what I could have ever comprehended. Thankful for you my dear daughter in love and for your encouraging words! 💕